I feel like an abusive wife trying to escape a tortuous relationship to find that people who are supposed to give comfort are voting for abusive relationships.
I haven't slept.. I have no idea what I'm talking about anymore.
I feel like a latin american girl tired of dealing with bombs on buses in her town and grenades exploding on my way to work, while dealing with potential murderer making jokes about rape murdering me, while still having to be nice to him because I don't want to make him angry, wanting to go to a country that offers safety and stability, while people there decided to vote for instability, weakening of institutions and handing it over to right wing nutters that will potentially create a system that causes all of the above and is the reason I want to escape. All because they don't like people like me stealing their jobs. Or some shit.
I really feel it is my fault, I entered uni, one month later, there was a coup and students arised up to create havoc during all of my career, I go to my village, the thing collapsed and now the resistance movement is dead. I go to England, they go nuts and vote to self destruct. It's me I am telling you. It's following me everywhere I go!
Also you probably feel more frustrated than me. Sorry, I just need to rant about it because this also makes me very fearful about my future.
It's cool, I wasn't trying to be a dick, I'm just in a horrible mood today. I've been in a 'men ain't shit' mood for a few weeks (#notallmen) and now a 'Britain is the worst and we all deserve to die' mood. I'm so angry and upset and frightened for the future. The rise of the right is just horrible and now we're a part of it here. You still got that stalker or is this a new potential murderer? We found out that a guy who used to work at the building where I worked (and who we kicked out for being frightening) brought a knife with a 6 inch blade in and hid it in the building and we were like 'Oh, we thought he was going to burn the place down and actually he might have just stabbed us'. What I'm saying is: stay safe. Hope you're keeping well, horrible geopolitics aside.